Student, 18 years

The second year of the course of meditation seemed to be different than the first year from the beginning. In my first year of the course, I tried to focus on meditating but I just could not keep my mind on it fully. I feel like I have matured over time during the first year of the course as well. I could sense my improvement during the classes when I would fall into meditating rather than keeping my eyes open or sleeping. I felt like I was just giving up or giving into failure so I would just stop trying. I felt like giving up was not an option and I kept trying. My first year I felt like I was dealing with a lot more stress but I did not know how to handle it and I did not know how to fully focus.

In my second year of the meditation course, I was fully into the meditation. I was actually ready by the first class and I could actually get into the different types of meditations. In the first year of the course, I could not feel anything in my mind but in the second year of the course I felt everything in my mind rushing. It was a new experience.